9/24/2017

Feeling sick

I'm back.

Usually, I don't talk about it, but these last few months have been hard for me. The dry weather, makes me feel sick, and many conflicts thoughts appear in my mind.

These thoughts don't define me, or even my actions, but they cause me pain.

Thinking about my health is complex for me because I'm generally sick in some way.

8/06/2017

Experiences

The only valuable experiences in life, are the ones that we have built. We connect less with others and more with ourselves.

Ask yourself, "Is it my priority?"

7/31/2017

Valuable lessons


When I'm in contact with nature, it's an opportunity of releasing some emotions. My beautiful conclusion is, the hard times, it can always teach us valuable lessons.

7/30/2017

Reordering

I'm reordering my priorities, and I'm feeling very content about it.

Tomorow, I'm going to the beach.

7/28/2017

Angry

I have been feeling a little angry, sad, these last few days. Today, I'm feeling better.

News of science and behavior really entertaining me.  

7/26/2017

Suddenly

I've got a busy day. I went to the grocery shop, to the sports store, to the computer store. I also did clean house.

Two weeks ago, I stopped my project, and now, I want to start it again.

For us, is easy to alter or replace the value of a specific situation. We start it for fun and all of a sudden, we are validating ourselves by it.

7/25/2017

Logic

Yesterday, I was watching an interview when the person said, "Make money instead of making friends".

I was thinking, trying to find a logic beneath it, and it does sense. We can be friendly, but we do not make a friend.

7/24/2017

Will it be so happy yet?

Our feelings, emotions and our relationships are empty promises. Usually, we believe it can save us from ourselves when the facts show us the opposite. They require a huge effort, constantly.

Our feelings, emotions and our relationships are part of our days, as simple as it. The painful situations will not hurt less because of it.

If we remember ourselves of the amount of pain we feel between our happy moments, will it be so happy yet?

7/23/2017

It requires several efforts, and patience

Today, the weather was less cold. I only drink 1 cup of hot cocoa.

I'm trying to establish a consensus about some thoughts. I hope to have an answer in the next few days.

Do some progress about one activity requires several efforts, and patience, and patience. But you feel great when it happens.

I hope to feel better soon. I'm back.

7/16/2017

Painful

What can be more painful than repeating the same actions, when you are expecting different results?

6/30/2017

Immensity

When I finish my work late at night, I enjoy spending at least 5 minutes outside, seeing the sky. Paying attention to the sounds of immensity, contemplating it.

6/28/2017

The cookie's problem

Imagine the following situation: There are 2 cookies and 2 people, each one takes a cookie. The situation is solved. Now, imagine you've got a third cookie, what to do with it?

It can actually become a case of continuous and consistent argumentation.

And tears and anger and anguish.

I need a break, I need silence.

6/25/2017

Tired

How know I that I'm tired? I know, because I started to pay less attention to the details. If I'm reading a book, only the main characters are interesting to me. I simply don't care about the rest of it.

It's time to go to sleep.

6/22/2017

It's not an exclusivity

Taking risks is not an exclusivity of one person when we are talking about a relationship, any kind of relationship.

If you have initiated an activity or a project with a person, the person is assuming it, as well. It's not an exclusivity of who have started it, but of all involved on it.

It can be sufficient to us

Today, I was thinking, if we want to measure one situation or if we want to have a better impression of a person, we need to first understand and accept that we don't have all the necessary information about it.

We can always ask for more details, or we can try to know more of it, but it still missing.

Even if it's not enough, it can be sufficient to us.

6/21/2017

When it's cold

I'm eating oatmeal, and after it, I go to sleep.

I want to back to write here every day.

6/19/2017

Reacting impulsively

I've been putting my attention, and I've been acting in a reactive mode. I was only responding to the demands and requisitions, continuously.

Now, I realized, I should be attempting to accomplish my personal requests. I need to remember to ask myself, "Is it important?", instead of reacting impulsively.

6/18/2017

Feeling better

Today, I was not feeling well (some situations can really hurt us).

Then, I decided to meditate for 15 minutes and put my thoughts in perspective. 

Now, I'll watch a movie, and I go to sleep.

6/15/2017

Quit social media

Today is cold; I already drink two cups of hot cocoa.

I want to emphasize, reading is a tiring experience.

I was thinking about reducing the time I've been spending online or even quit social media, but I like to write, what turn it hard to decide.

I'm also planning on making a little trip.

6/12/2017

Decisions

All day long I was thinking about the decisions I need to make in the next few days. I'm glad because I've been thinking about it for a long time.

And I've finally bought my new desktop computer.

6/11/2017

Concentrate

I was reading, and I just finished the first chapter of the book. I want to be focusing on my studies. I'll sleep now, I'm tired.

6/10/2017

Smile, and happy

Today, I had a busy day. I went to the supermarket, to the grocery store, to the drugstore, and then, I put the groceries away, cleaned the house.

Also, I did online shopping and bought 3 e-books. I've started one of them and read 25 pages.

Now, I've finished of watching my favorite tv show.

A little thought:

There is always great people who make you smile, and happy.

6/09/2017

Self-esteem

Today, I did a long walk and made several improvements on my two projects. It's difficult when you have a tiring day at the work.

A thought:

We have a society based on expectations, and it usually results in criticism, criticism about the other's lives. Taking it into consideration, you presume people only make good choices and choose certainly the best opportunities, when it's not the case.

If you expect hugely by the other's validation, you'll simply decrease your self-esteem by aborting your values and beliefs.

Our self-esteem needs to be related to our values, awareness, and self-compassion. Life is not so obvious, and it requires taking risks.

6/08/2017

We lost the habit

I'm tired today.

A thought:

I was talking with a friend, she was commenting about how our group of friends becomes tiny, having only a little amount of people. We are in 3, now, and we struggle to maintain our intimacy.

People move away, and we lost contact. We lost the habit.

In certain circumstances, you feel tired, when you consistently put yourself in an unstable position, trying to avoid losing it. Maintaining a friendship is a huge responsibility.

Maybe, the friendship is only a circumstantiality. It's fragile and unnecessary.

6/07/2017

Best parameters

Today, I stayed in the sun for approximately 20 minutes. It was resting. I also remembered myself to put more focusing on my two current projects. I was busy, and I've entirely forgotten about it.

A little thought:

In certain circumstances, I feel excited, almost euphoric when I think about the future, then, I realize and interrupt myself.

Feeling these emotions and enthusiasm only will put me in an uncertain psychological position. Emotions aren't a parameter to make actions, activities or to concentrate my efforts.

Our best parameters are our values, wich includes self-compassion.

6/06/2017

Split our needs

I'm a feeling well today, but tired. Finally, I'm choosing the specs of my new desktop computer.

I was thinking how hard is find people to compose our lives. What we usually do, is split our needs between our friends and family, and each of them takes a specific role in it.

6/05/2017

Two topics

First:

Today is the birthday of my sister, I'm very happy for her. I already bought her present, a book. Tonight, I'll probably eat more sugar than I should. Maybe, I'll be posting a photo here.

Second:

For me, I'm glad because I could release some emotion, in these last few days. Now, I'm a feeling much better and happy.

Taking risks

Today morning, I was thinking and availing circumstances of my life, and in all situations, take risks was a crucial component of it.

It requires accepting our fears, willing ourselves to experience our emotions and feelings completely and when we use to do it, we become able to assume it more confidently.

When we live in an unstable environment, permeated by criticism, allowing yourself, it is not easy.

Taking risks is a benefit in two aspects. First we need to experience new situations, and second, we gain more confidence.

6/04/2017

Persistence

For me, nothing is more discouraging than having the impression of doesn't make any progress on situations I am engaged in.

It isn't have been related to the progress per si. Valuable situations involve development, meaning, and persistence.

6/02/2017

I've been feeling under pressure

I've been feeling under pressure. It doesn't happen every single day, but its frequency has been increased lately.

When I feel pressured, I tend to want to accomplish more, but I don't exactly want to do it. My intention is to break it, recover my energies and stay away from the pressures.

Maybe, I've been idealizing a life with less pressure.